Determination under Stress

These days I’m in a stress of avoiding my temptation of doing things which I couldn’t think of in the past. The time is tough, but will pass. I’m looking for changes, I change my work timings, I change my wake up timings. I’m becoming sporty. I’m living a more personal life now. I’m liberated to live my own. I’m now not afraid of taking the blows on my nose. Life’s tough, but is beautiful, a crap from one of my friend. I’ve to change myself whatever be reason. Till date I was following a star, as if it was the way to my destiny, and I’ll get it one day. But then I realized the star which was shining for me, or smiling for me throughout the night doesn’t have the brightness enough to keep up with me in the daylight. I want a 24*7 companion to me, if it is the soil of earth which is giving my legs support to stand, I’ll thank to the earth for holding me and not follow any other deceptive shining figures. Downstream rafting is not a big deal, but the real joy of game is when we raft against the flow. The flow is against me, is it? NO. I would say it is just favoring me to be tougher, more realistic, more adventurous, more passionate, more perseverance, and many more. I’m increasing my limits, and will tend to make it infinity. And while writing this blog, I just realized, I’ve become more of I now, earlier I was we.

These days I’m learning Boxing, unrealistic to believe, but believe me it’s TRUE. It’s the game that makes me live a complete life within the 22 ft x 22 ft ring. Nose blows, ego hurting, being beaten up, guarding self to avoid damage, and looking for the chances to knock out or taking out the punch over the opponent; these are perspectives of living shortest human life, just two minutes, but enough to perspire every emotion of life of being hurt to being proud. Every time I came off the ring, I was hurt, but that gave me more passion to re-enter the arena with the only mindset to hit him more next time.

Life’s an extended version of the Boxing match, the opponent here is the complete world, it’s just me alone one side. But who are you thinking you are with, you are also alone; everybody at his own. Even our own shadow which in tough times of afternoons contracts and tries to hide itself beneath us, tends to expand and run away from us during the pleasant times of mornings and evenings. The shadow too, is our companion only when we are in the brighter side of the life, even our own shadow doesn’t want to live with the person in the darkness. So who are we with in our sorrow side of life, none, but with just the self? So there’s no point for habitual of anyone, you’ll be alone, in your needy times. A one liner I came across recently – “World praises only the rising Sun”. The people will follow me if I live a happy life. It’s joyous or touchy to see the Slumdog Millionaire, but nobody wants to have the misery of the Slums, every one when thinks of themselves they think of just to be Bill Gates, Warren Buffet, Brad Pitt, Ambani or any other successful person. Metaphorically, it is the materialistic happiness you expresses to the world, determines whether the world will follow you or not.  Being sad I can just look for someone to be pity on me, but then it is just the other’s choice to be with me or not. But life follows happy people, even the glow of our own skin tarnishes away when we keep being sad. The world will follow me, only when I’ll be happy. So, I’m keeping the determination to remain happy whatever be the situations, and if the wind anytime blows against me, I’ll take it as an adventure.

The Determination always reside self within; reasoning of the external factors is just being non Determined. The first statement of life I was impressed with, Water doesn’t boil at 99.999 degree Celsius, even the last 0.001 degree is as important as the rest to break Hydrogen bonds between the Water molecules to evaporate it.  So it’s not worth to claim my prize or possession at 99.9% efforts. Only the completed projects are sellable in the market. Though till now I was 100% in my efforts but the perseverance to make it done, was somewhere I was lagging, from now on I’ll chase the dreams till I wake up or if the dream becomes my life. Starters can initiate but only the Finishers can win the Race.